Patience /Trust

It is all about trust really. In reality nothing is for certain. We walk a thin line between chaos and stability. We are afraid of chaos because we fear we will loose our way. We are afraid of feeling lost. We do not trust our inner guidance, we ironically believe that it is the outer guidence that will show the way. Without trust there is no love. It is out of the bedrock of trust that love grows and blossoms into its all-emcompassing Splendour. But before you can trust, you have to trust youself.

I have felt myself deceived many times and felt it like a ice-cold stab in the heart, which slowly spreads through your unbelieving mind, your world thrown into chaos, believes shattered. But I have picked myself up, shook of the humbling dust, a lot wiser. But I have more importantly for me, been able to forgive, and even felt grateful for the lesson I was taught, which saved me from bigger disasters. I have not lost my trust, my trust has grown in depth. From what I have experienced in my life, I know that I will find my way out of chaos, my supply of ideas are limitless, and out of that chaos you can rise with more trust, more understanding, a greater ability and capacity for love. The deeper your ability to trust the deeper your ability to love. And from where do those thoughts of inspiration come from? Not an external source?

Trust is taught through patience. I used to feel an inner irritation when I heard St. Augustine's "The reward of patience is patience. What kind of reward is that? In time past the San had a as part of their wedding rituals a test, which if the man fails the test, he would be banished from the tribe.

"The old people's biggest responsibility was, never to let their eyes tire, of observing the boys ... and to look how they walk from the moment they begin to walk. The boy-child that starts the path bent, - throw thorns in the path of other children – will not walk a straight path when he is an adult. The boy that shows he will be a great hunter, is the man that will be a good husband for a woman. He is a man with the power of not being hasty ... he has the power of the long wait.

"Patience?"

The power that comes from the long wait, until the buck is close enough for his arrow. And he is the man who have the power in his heart not to break the great law of marriage during the first two weeks of his life with his young wife... It is the law that the woman lies with her head to sunrise ... the man with his head to sunset ... with the soles of their feet touching ..."

Jagters van die Woestynland – P.J.Schoeman

It was a test of patience, for the family of a hunter who lacks patient stealth, will know many hungry nights. With patience you become a master hunter. One who observes with awareness learns to see the finest nuances through eyes of the tracker. With patience you do not overlook the signs along the way to guide you, you begin to trust the signs, to trust that you will find your way through the chaos.

In magical thought the human body is the 'microcosm' of the Earth, which is the 'macrocosm'. The Earth is also the microcosm of the Universe. The human being are pictures of the essence of the planet and thus of the Universe. As such it is believed, when we change ourselves, we can change the Earth and the Universe.